So I met this guy at a party in late August and he seemed so nice, he was so kind to me and we ended up hooking up, nothing serious happened it was just a bit of fun. Then he carried on pursuing me and I liked him so much that after a few days I agreed to go out with him… I know it seems fast but we were crazy about each other we would talk for hours and hours without getting bored… we loved each others company. He came up to visit me by train and we had a really good time.. then he came up to surprise visit me but I had an inkling that he was coming.. I thought it was so sweet so I wanted to thank him… I really liked him and knew that he cared deeply about me so when he came I decided to have sex with him… for the first time ever in a friends apartment she had lent me. It wasn’t that great.. the sex I mean but I mean it was my first time and no first time is perfect is it. But the important thing was that I thought I could trust him to stick around. Then two weeks later I went up and met his friends and family and I had sex with him again and it was great, much better I was so happy. Until he called me on the phone two days later and told me he was to stressed at the moment to be with him. The depressing thing is that we had planned to spend those next two weeks together, I’d bought outfits and train tickets to go to parties he planned on us to go to together and it turns out that it was not going to happen. I can’t believe he hurt me like this… I trusted him with my virginity and he threw it back in my face completely I can’t believe I let him close enough to hurt me like this. I still can’t hate him because I’m not sure if he’s a dick head or not. All I know is that I feel completely let down, angry, hurt, betrayed and stupid for believing he was different from the other guys I was with.. but at least I didn’t give those other guys my virginity… I’m such an idiot
