Shut it off…
So it’s been awhile. Awhile since I last saw your face. Your smile. Felt your embrace. Felt your love at all. I remember all our firsts like they were yesterday. Our first kiss. That first date. The way you made me feel. Everything. It’s still such a fresh memory I could swear it happened yesterday.
Yet here I am. Months after it ended. I can’t even picture your face. I can’t breath right when I think about you. And to hear your name, or to recall you I find myself slipping. Slipping towards depression. I want to cry everyday. Every night. Every second. It wasn’t supose to be like this. How did it end up this way? Is this normal? Are we supose to pretend we never knew each other? To forget those long conversations… Endless nights… Long kisses… And those silly fights. I tried protecting myself. But I forgot one thing. I have this heart you see, and no matter what I tell it, it beats in your direction. But it can’t anymore. What a fool it is. We’re over and done with. Maybe I’m just saying this because what would have been our anniversary is coming up. Or maybe I’m feeling this deep regret because I let you in, and I let you go…. Or rather I protected myself and pushed you away. Or maybe I got to stop stopping whispering “I wish you would miss me.” every time I see 11:11 on the clock an start wishing I could forget. Because I’ve never felt so alone, and I can’t do this anymore. It’s taking way too long to just move on…. I just don’t understand…
Break-Up Phase: (what's this?)
u made the 1st move by breakin up w/this person to know that some1 is better for u in the future.Thats your 1st step.it gets easier.trust me
The easy part about moving on is talking about it, the action of doing so is what needs to be done. I would know i am just talking about it.
Ok, so I know this isn't what you want to hear, but I PROMISE it'll get easier. You will love again. You will feel that spark. Stay strong.