I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! .. but i think i want to be with her ..

Lula | juice | February 8, 2012

So, id been with my first serious boyfriend for a year and a half, and a couple of months after we'd celebrated our year, he started to act wierd, he didnt want to have sex as often and it would always be me asking for it .. and so fireworks night came, my favourite weekend on the year, he went inside to get a torch and left his phone (that we had been using for a light) on the floor, and normally he would let me look at it, but recently hed been keeping it close to him, and suspicious as i am, i looked, i found texts about how hed had sex with his "best friend" who he had begged me to like because "nothing was ever going to happen because shes my best friend" .. and so after 6 hours of crying and cuddling and kissing, i forgave him and he said he wanted me .. so my 18th birthday was about 6 weeks after that .. he got me a beautiful watch and he acted lovely to all my friends and he was a charm, but after that i knew something was still going on .. so id been watching their skype conversations and i read that he wanted to be with her .. so i decided that the rat who doesnt have more than one A LEVEL .. no uni degree, no plans to go to uni and just wants to work in waitrose with his .. little s*** all his life, i decided i was better than than, and now, still a little upset ofcourse because that a year and a half i have to move on from, and its not just that that upsets me, my parents loved him like a son and they hurt too, and its not fair ..

but im seeing someone else now, whos amazing, and so i dont care how much hes pissed at me that im selling the watch, he cant get over it because he doesnt control me anymore ..

Break-Up Phase: (what's this?)

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